I'm upset.

I went into my mom's office today just to see what she was doing, and when she saw me she said "Another actress came out as gay." So I told her I knew, because I'd seen about it last night. Then she went on a rant how "Why do they have to come out as gay? Why can't they just be people. Straight people don't come out as straight like 'Hello! I like boys!'" So I just told her I didn't know. Then she looked at me and asked "Are you still confused? Cause I know for a while there you were." I told her no. She didn't understand what I'd meant. So she went on to say "I'd like for there to be a guy in your future. There's a boy out there for you." After that I couldn't take any more. She's been noticing that I don't talk about guys, and there are times when I have to force myself to. She doesn't realize and won't accept that I DON'T like guys. There won't be a boyfriend, or a husband. I hurt so much because I ca't even be honest with my OWN MOTHER. I've tried twice to tell her, both times she kept saying "It's a phase, it's a phase. Everyone goes through them." The second time, she threw her hands in the air and said"Thank GOD I have a GAY daughter!!" then stormed down my hallway. I hurt so badly right bow because I'd  love to tell her. I'd love to talk about crushes with her and such, and I can't. And now she thinks that I like guys because she didn't understand my answer, and I can't explain it to her. My plan is to tell her when I'm 18, before I leave home. But still.. I wish I could tell her soon.. I think I'm going to go lock myself up in my room now..